Next month will be the first birthday of this blog. Since this blog's creation much has changed, as the case usually is with me. The biggest thing is what prompted me to write this blog in the first place.
This time last year, I was terrified. I was assessing what the prior year had done to me financially, mentally, and emotionally and did not like the results. I was struggling with what was possibly the biggest failure I had ever encountered and to be completely honest, I wasn't handling it well at all. Sure I'd failed before in life, but never on such a large scale. I was always "The Smart One," "The One Who Knew it All," "The One Who Had it All Figured Out." My identity was based on these ideas, and when they broke, so did my sense of self.
But hey, what's life without a few shake-ups now and then?
I couldn't mope forever, nor did I want to. So I found a new job. It wasn't much, a few hours here and there, but it was enough to convince me that giving up this career would have been a huge mistake. I went back to school and pulled off an A-average (how's that for confidence boosting?). And, finally, I started mending myself and my ideas. I got rid of what was unhealthy for the most part and started seeing life in a new light.
This blog hasn't finished serving its purpose. I doubt this will be the last time I fail or freak out. It also won't be the last time I pick myself up and keep moseying. If anything, I'm looking forward to what new adventures this year will bring, and write down as many of them as possible right here.
RG
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