The Hard Truth

I'm a believer in searching for one's own truth in life. I think that to follow a path because everyone else is doing so is a terrible thing to do. I also believe in true reflection. Not just pointing out all of one's good qualities but defining flaws to work on. Here is my hard truth.

I am a tough broad. I became a tough broad in response to being treated in ways I perceived to be cruel and unfair. I don't particularly like being a tough broad, but until I learn how to trust in others without giving up my well-being, it's how I have to be. I don't trust that many people. I like more people than I trust nowadays and I think I'm ok with that. I'm opinionated. I have opinions about things, but I tend not to give them unless asked or provoked. Not liking my opinions makes them neither valid nor invalid, just an opinion of one's own. I don't put up with a lot of people's garbage, but I sympathize with people who feel they have to because once upon a time, that was me.

My temper in years of late have caused me more than its fair share of problems. I'm incredibly hot-blooded and not as averse to conflict as I once was. Put in certain circumstances, this can be explosive for some people and quite enjoyable for others. My biggest flaw is that I am stubborn. If I'm right, I'm right. No two ways about it. If I choose to go down a certain path, I stay on it til the end, and as far as I can if the end isn't possible. These are all things about myself that I've come to accept are true. I know they affect how people see me and how I am approached. I don't particularly like any of these things, but I know they are true. So I do what I can to alleviate them for me and for others.

The hardest truths to accept are the ones about ourselves. That doesn't make them any less important to acknowledge. It is only by realizing everything about ourselves that we can make true progress.

RG